Who's having mood swings now?

First time I sat in CKL's car and kept quiet....really QUIET because I didn't want to trigger a cold war with him.

The day before, he asked me if I wanna go for lunch. I replied late and said, "No, i'm bz!" Today, he asked me again and so I thought, "All right since he's around PJ". I think I shouldn't neglect my friends just because I'm so overloaded with work! So, I thought perhaps since I'm going out, I might as well go grab my pair of shoes = shopping :p

Over lunch, CKL jokingly said that I always have mood swings coz I didn't reply his text msges. The fact is, I was so busy I didn't have time to even eat my lunch, what more reply his smses!! And my mum is worried sick that I'll have gastric again :p

After lunch, he agreed to go shopping. I thought as usual, he wanted to get his groceries too.....so off I went to Subang Parade and shopped for my stuff while he stayed at Carrefour.

How on earth would I know that he actually waited for me.... or did he not? I don't know! So, poor him, I reckon he waited quite a while and was getting frustrated already!! More so when we couldn't find his car after I finished shopping! Gosh.... normally I would remember where I park but today, since I wasn't driving, I took for granted that it's the driver's responsibility to remember where he parked while the driver might have also thought that it's the co-pilot's responsibility!! Anyway, thank God, we finally found his car!

The thing is......don't expect that I can read his mind. Even when he's my KOKO, he has to tell me that he prefers not to shop and I can go shopping by myself!! And I definitely didn't take his pack of cigarettes..... well, months back, when he bought his cigarrette, I took it away from him and hid it!! Got scolded but it didn't matter coz I really wanted him to quit smoking!

Good for him that he has successfully quit smoking for a couple of months......but today, suddenly he said, "Hey, I just bought a packet of cigarettes in the car!" I was so shocked....speechless! Well, maybe he has been smoking again all these while but I was too busy to notice....sigh, what a friend I am!! Obviously, he's a casual smoker, ain't addicted to it but still he smokes! So I guess.....today's my last ride in his car!! Possibly, the last meal with him too.....

Sorry la, I don't go out with a smoker! KOKOs included......

Forgiven him for accusing me for keeping his newly bought packet of cigarettes. He looked high and low for it in the car after lunch but still couldn't find!!

It's just beyond any explanation! It just disappeared into the thin air. In his mind, there were only two possibilities; either it's in his car or as usual, I took it and hid it from him!! This time, he was furious......looked as though he was going to eat me up if I don't return his cigarettes immediately! I said, "No....not this time, I didn't take!!" and so he apologised. But his looks and tone of voice betrayed him coz he was still mad and really upset. "Better own up gal!!"

I guess my KOKO didn't trust me enough and I really shouldn't have sacrifice my afternoon to go lunch with him and to be accused of something that I didn't do!! Worst of all, I didn't know that he wasn't going to do his grocery shopping! How would I know if he kept quiet and agreed to go shopping but ended up not doing his shopping!!

Sensed his anger, for whatever reasons!! For waiting too long, for going in circles to find his car...for his sudden missing cigarettes....for everything! I guess he just needed someone to blame........ sigh!

Look who's having mood swings now! Me or you huh, CKL?

My little reminder!

After all these years, if there's one other verse that I could recall from my bible apart from John 3:16, it would have been Matthew 28:19. The weather may change unpredictably, people may come and go in our lives but this verse remains ever so close to my heart!

So, once again, after so many years, I'm reminded of the purpose of my existence! One of the speakers for yesterday's combined YA in church, Tan Wai Ling, spoke about the shelter home that she has started in Nepal 3 years ago especially for those infected with the HIV. When GOD called her to go to Nepal, she obediently left her comfort zone, fulfilled her calling and lived among the local people in Nepal for the last 6 years! She is indeed one faithful servant of the LORD. That was no menial task but as she remains faithful to her calling, GOD has provided for all her needs! "Wow..... can I do the same?" is the BIG question.

Time and again, I question myself, "will I be like Jonah or will I say, "Yes, Lord, wherever you send me, I will go!"

It is a blessing to be called a child of GOD and to know that each one of us is HIS precious child. As I experience HIS overflowing love in my life, it is my passion and my desire to share the good news to people all around me.... So help me LORD to bind these words in my heart and live as YOU would want me to live.... purposefully!

Below is my little reminder..... forgot who wrote it, but it's a good & meaningful reminder to me!

My friend, I stand in judgement now,
And feel you are to blame somehow,
On earth I walked with you each day,
And never did you show the way!

You know the Lord in truth and glory,
But never did you tell the story,
My knowledge then was very dim,
You could have led me safe to HIM.

Though we lived together on this earth,
You never told me of the second birth,
And now I stand this day condemned,
Because you failed to mention HIM.

You taught me many things that's true,
I called you a friend and trusted you,
But I learn now that it's too late,
You could have saved me from this fate,

We walked by day and talked by night,
And yet you showed me not the light,
You let me live and love and die,
You know that I'll never live on high.

Yes, I called you a "friend" in life,
And trusted you through joy and strife,
And yet on coming to this end,
I cannot now call you my friend!

~ Quoted from somewhere, someone~

Did you know....

I have so much to accomplish in a day, so busy day in and out .... so, it's not quite true that although I'm not in the rat race anymore, I'm supposedly "free" from my work! A fallacy that would be :p Well, maybe I'm a workaholic....

Anyway, to summarise my activities for the past few weeks, I compiled my "Did u know list??" Here goes... Did you know....

1. I finally pierced my ears on 31 DECEMBER 2005, one of the most eventful days in my life!

2. Jacky Guo came to KL for one week in February 2006 to visit Hidaya and me while on his business trip. Hidaya and I were really delighted to see him; a changed person and indeed, we had a great time catching up with one another.... I would always remember Claude with his unkempt hair but Jacky, as always, would take care of his appearance + hair etc quite well. You're still the same, no worries.... perhaps more thoughtful and more mature now I reckon! FRIM outing wasn't that bad after all but canopy walk was closed for maintenance then, too bad!! Perhaps one day, I should visit him and the rest of my beloved friends in China when I learn up my Chinese haha....

3. I bought a small *blink blink* for the fun of it.... had lifetime guarantee.....wah, sounds good! It's a tiny INVISIBLE diamond pair of ear-rings to say the least.... even when you squint, you won't be able to see the diamond. What the heck!! CKL said, "not bad"....phew! Otherwise, I'll scream at him for giving me another nasty comment! haha....

4. But too bad, I had an ear infection two weeks ago and therefore one of my pierced ears has actually closed.... much to my short-lived joy of owning and wearing a pair of ear-rings haha!

5. None of my good old friends realised it during our dinner outing two weeks ago....sigh, what a disappointment!! Maybe the romantic place was too dark to notice.... It's like a smaller scale of "tamarind springs" called "Green Lotus" somewhere behind Lot 10 but it's a rather noisy place, I can hardly hear myself talking. Minus the bazaar atmosphere, it's the place to be for good food.
6. Made two crazy trips to Matta Fair on 18 and 19 March 2006 (where many booths were set up for the travel agents to promote domestic and overseas travelling). Saturday's crowd was bearable but on Sunday, I could only squeeze my way through..... maybe triple the crowd on Saturday! Needless to say, Malaysians are fond of being "last minute" in their culture, sigh!!

7. I really enjoyed my LRT ride to the Matta Fair.....it's been a while since I last took LRT. No traffic congestion but a little too crowded at certain hours.

8. I actually bumped into my former high school teacher, Mrs Wong at Marco's Pizza ( opposite Kelana Jaya LRT) and Kelvin Tan, my fellow toast master at Starbucks, The Mall shopping centre!! Of course, it was also good meeting up with Viola after so many years....she hasn't changed at all although she's a MRS. now......

9. CKL is actually very thoughtful, ain't as sarcastic as he used to be, a good friend to me, sometimes very unexpected ........ although still lazy ( likes to zzzzz)..... When no one else could spare me his/her precious time on 18 March, he actually took time off to accompany me......thank you friend! Really do appreciate it :p

10. Just when I thought no one noticed it, a little girl aged 12 actually came up to me and asked, "Why do you only wear one side of your ear-ring?" in a childlike manner. I was so touched because she noticed :)

When will I pierce my ear again? Don't know, maybe when my ear lobe has completely healed and when I pluck out enough courage once again. Another 31 December ??

Congratulations SARAH :)

It didn't matter when Sarah woke me up with her text msg at 1.25AM ..... because GOD has finally answered her prayer! Not in our own timing....but in HIS perfect timing!

I read her blog everyday and felt a bit worried when her long-awaited letter hasn't arrived! Her friends have gotten their letters but when is Sarah's letter coming?? "Why has it been delayed.....where is her letter?" are probably some of the anxious questions that ran through my mind......Perhaps, GOD has other plans for her instead of furthering her studies in Japan. Perhaps, just perhaps....

But, in the midst of all the uncertainties, Sarah remained calm, patient and poise...... I know how insecure she felt when her long-awaited letter didn't arrive as expected. Her birthday was fast approaching when her friends received their offer letters but not Sarah.... I was really worried and I bet, Sarah had many sleepless nights waiting for her "letter" to come! But only GOD knows that the best birthday gift for her is "THE LETTER" and to be received on her birthday :)

Yes.... finally on March 8, 2006...(Sarah's birthday!!!) Sarah's Japanese scholarship letter came.... I was groggy no more when i read her text msg because I was so overjoyed for her.... I could see her grinning from ear to ear and imagine her tears trickling down her cheers thanking GOD for HIS wondrous love & blessings upon her life. I know everyone else was in an elated mood :)

"Babe, just got my letter today! I'm going Japan!..." these will be the words to stay till I meet her before she flies off..... Happy packing gal... can you put me in your suitcase too?

Thank you Lord for the great plans that you have for Sarah! Your thoughts and your ways are definitely higher than ours.... GOD is good, all the time!

Say hi to Nicole when u see her :)

This is my beloved niece, Nicole Ng who's going to be four soon in October!! Little Nic started her so-called "school" on 1st March 2006 (Wednesday) but the next day, she refused to attend her Smart Reader class!! Nic threw her tantrums this morning (Friday) and said she'll drink milk and then go to sleep again instead of getting ready for her class. Sighh..... how can we make her go to school? Will Nicole ever go to school? Arghhh..... take it slow I guess :p